Random abortion dream. Please Help!?

I'm a 20 year old single student and there is no reason why I should dream that I am pregnant and choose to have an abortion. Apologies for the graphic detail, but i'm just going to tell it as it happened. Okay so, it begins with me being pregnant and my ex boyfriend is freaking out at the idea (bearing in mind I haven't talked to my ex for over a year as we left it on bad terms). My ex best friend (who I appear to be quite close to in the dream) tells me about a clinic near my home which offers abortion services. Next thing I know i'm there, and this pleasant (yet unprofessional) nurse is instructing me how I can do it myself. She gives me an instrument (which looks like a thread unpicker) and tells me all I have to do is stab it into my stomach. (here comes the unpleasant bit. I apologise) She then tells me I have to cut one of the tubes inside of me. Anyway, I go home and attempt to abort the baby by myself. All this time there is no regret of becoming pregnant, just the fear of my mother finding out. So, at home in my bedroom, I do as i'm instructed by the nurse. Blood is everywhere :/ and I can see the fetus on the floor (disturbing I know). In all the time this is happening there is no pain whatsoever. Does anyone know what this could mean?